GOOD STORY ABOUT A MOTHER'S GRIEF
This picture proudly, once again, hangs in my home.
It belongs to Roddie but he has allowed me to keep it for
him until he is once again ready for it.
It's a picture of Daddy in white and Uncle Emel.
But let me share the story that goes with this picture,
the same one that fascinated Roddie so much that
he begged Momma for the picture when he was young.
WHEN I WAS A TEENAGER, I ASKED DADDY IF
I COULD GO THROUGH ALL HIS OLD PICTURES
AND PUT SOME TYPE OF ORGANIZATION TO THEM.
HE BRUSHED ME OFF AND SAID HE DIDN'T CARE.
I GUESS EVEN THEN I WAS A BUDDING SCRAPBOOKER.
WHILE PLAYING IN ALL THOSE OLD PICTURES
I CAME ACROSS A 5X7 OF THIS SAME PICTURE ABOVE
BUT DIDN'T KNOW THE ONE ABOVE EXISTED.
HOWEVER, THE SMALL ONE WAS DIFFERENT FROM THIS ONE.
THE SMALLER ONE HAD A PICTURE OF A LITTLE GIRL
STANDING ON THE SIDE OF DADDY.
I DIDN'T RECOGNIZE THE GIRL SO I BROUGHT IT TO DADDY
AND ASKED HIM WHO SHE WAS.
HE NONCHALANTLY TOLD ME THAT WAS HIS SISTER
OLIVIA.
OLIVIA, OLIVIA? DIDN'T KNOW HER...
HE TOLD ME THAT NOT LONG AFTER THE PICTURE
WAS TAKEN SHE WAS HIT IN THE BACK WITH A SWING.
SHE BECAME SICK AND DIED.
WELL, THIS FREAKED ME OUT, AN AUNT THAT
I DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT?
HE WOULDN'T GIVE ME MORE INFORMATION.
I WENT ON AND GREW UP.
WHILE PACKING MOMMA TO MOVE INTO HER TRAILER,
I CAME ACROSS THIS PICTURE ABOVE.
I IMMEDIATELY LOVED IT AND RECOGNIZED IT
BUT NOTICED THE LITTLE GIRL WAS MISSING.
IF YOU LOOK CLOSELY AT THE PICTURE
YOU CAN SEE THAT THE LEFT SIDE IS BLURRED OUT.
I WAS SO UPSET ABOUT THE FACT THAT SHE WASN'T THERE.
I QUESTIONED MOMMA AND TOLD HER HOW
I REMEMBER THE OTHER PICTURE AND THERE SHOULD
BE A GIRL NAMED OLIVIA IN THIS PICTURE.
THEN MOMMA SHARED WITH ME THE TRUE STORY
OF OLIVIA...
SHE DIED OF A HIGH FEVER, NOT SURE IF
SHE HAD A RUPTURED APPENDIX OR RUPTURED
HER KIDNEY WHEN SHE FELL OF THE SWING.
HOWEVER, HER MOMMA WENT INTO A SEVERE
DEPRESSION AFTER HER DEATH BLAMING
HERSELF FOR THE LOSS OF THE LITTLE
GIRL WHO WAS, MOM THOUGHT 11.
THE ONLY WAY SHE COULD GET OVER IT
WAS TO PRETEND SHE NEVER EXISTED
SO SHE GOT RID OF EVERY PICTURE OF OLIVIA.
TOOK HER OFF OF EVERY PICTURE THAT EXISTED.
FORBID ANYONE FROM SPEAKING OF HER.
ONLY IN THIS WAY COULD SHE GO ON WITH
HER LIFE AND RAISE HER OTHER CHILDREN.
I SEARCHED FOR THE 5X7 PICTURE AND WAS
NEVER ABLE TO FIND IT AGAIN.
MOM THOUGHT THAT DADDY HAD GOTTEN
RID OF IT AFTER I FOUND IT.
Can you imagine how painful it must be to loose
a child that it would be easier to pretend
she never existed!
After Roddie heard this story he begged for
the picture, and mom never could tell Roddie no.
He hung this picture in his room
the whole time he was growing up
and told the story many, many times.
Some of you may have heard it from him
or me.
However it still blows my mind and wanted to share it again.
love to all!,