SAVING BOBBY

While the weather was nasty this weekend and I 

and HOBL, better known these days as Broke Back,

one of the Lifetime movies we watched was 

SAVING BOBBY

I had seen it before, way in the 90's when my babies

were still that,  children living under my roof.

The first time I saw it I had no idea gypsy baby was gay.

As I watched it again on Sunday I had so many feelings.

The movie is based in the years between 1979-1983.

The world has changed so much since then.

the synopsis is about a young adult who shares 

with his family that he is gay.

His mother then proceeds not only to beg

him to change his ways via religion

but attempts to pray him straight.

After being unable to convince his family that he is 

a good, loving son still, he decides to commit suicide

in a manner that can be labeled as nothing but

very brave, he jumps off a bridge to his death.

I cried again seeing the movie, even though

I knew how it would end. His mother, after his death,

not only finds out the things she should have while Bobby was alive

but becomes an advocate for other people who are gay.

A little too late for Bobby.

This time watching was different,

because this time I have a close relationship to Bobby 

because of my own gypsy baby.

I am so thankful that I and HOBL handled gypsy baby's 

announcement so different from Bobby's mother.

Never did I ever think I could or should change her

but my unconditional love came into high gear,

wanting to not only share it with the world but to make sure

the world was good to her.

On this Sunday, my "empty nest" issues came into high gear.

I wanted to go back in time to the first time I saw this movie.

I wanted gypsy baby to be young again so I can make 

sure I relayed to her that I would love her no matter what,

that I did not care whether she was gay, or purple

that I love her always.

I know she knew this without the words,

but I wanted to do it again all the same.

I also wanted her little again because no matter how much

the world has changed since 1983, it still has so far to go in relations

to gay people and couples and I want to protect my gypsy baby 

from the negatives.  I know my gypsy baby, she needs no 

protection from the world, my tough skinned girl,

but I want another chance to do it anyway.

My girl, she is a child of God whether she knows it or cares.

She has about as much choice at being gay as she does at breathing air.

The Big Man, he loves her as she is,

and there should never, ever be any talk from anyone 

about her changing for the betterment of her relationship with her

higher power. 

Too bad Bobby could not be saved as for my gypsy baby,

she does not need saving, she is perfect just the way she is.

Love to my gay baby and all those out there who 

face the criticism of the close minded people of the world.