It's a New Year, sunday morning

First Sunday of the New Year.

One of my New Years resolutions?

No missing weekend mass!

Yep, I say it here in hopes that my mind does not

confuse my heart in how important this is.

It is cold, I am stiff, I want to make one hundred excuses

as to why I should wait until tonight to go to church.

Aah-hah but my heart knows what my mind is doing,

it's done it many times before, talking it out of

this important ritual.

You see, through this whole ordeal of getting answers

about my health, I have also found that I have

pulled away from the life I have and love.

Part of that life was attending church, no matter what,

every Sunday unless so sick I felt like I was dying.

It is in those walls of a Church, sharing with others who

believe my faith, that I am nourished to give back to

others in Jesus' name.

KD and BABY BOY gave me the second book for

Christmas called:

BLUE LIKE JAZZ by DONALD MILLER

okay I know I say all the time

"you have got to read this book"

but really, if you have any doubts about whether

or not there is a God or how important faith is in a life,

you must read this book.

This author writes strictly from the belt, his own belt.

He talks about how he has found his way

and how he and friends did not believe in a God he couldn't see.

What I read last night is so powerful to me.

He is talking about his friend, Laura and how she doubted

there was a God and how awful this made her feel.

She wanted him to prove that there is a God because

she wanted so desperately to believe,

this is what he says:

... I THINK LAURA WAS LOOKING FOR SOMETHING RATIONAL...

SHE BELIEVED THAT ALL THINGS THAT WERE TRUE

WERE RATIONAL...

I HAVE BEEN IN LOVE, MANY PEOPLE HAVE.

YET LOVE CANNOT BE PROVED SCIENTIFICALLY.

NEITHER CAN BEAUTY OR LIGHT...

AND YET WE BELIEVE IN LIGHT AND

BY LIGHT SEE ALL THINGS.

THERE ARE PLENTY OF THINGS THAT ARE TRUE

THAT DON'T MAKE SENSE...

I THINK ONE OF THE PROBLEMS LAURA WAS HAVING

WAS THAT SHE WANTED GOD TO MAKE SENSE.

HE DOESN'T. HE WILL MAKE NO MORE SENSE TO ME

THAN I WILL TO AN ANT.

Okay, for me this is powerful stuff.

Sometimes I feel sorry for the young adults and children

of the world. We have raised them in a society

where everything is explained, everything has a formula

and they have a right to know the answer.

If it cannot be proven then it must not be true.

I have raised my children with the freedom to question

and expect an answer for everything.

Yet then I have asked them to believe in something that

is built on faith only. There are no answers and

the whole story of Jesus and the Bible sounds

like a fairy tale to them.

I am sometimes questioned of how can I believe.

My new answer is, I JUST DO

By my actions, by the way I live, this is how

I should spread the word of my faith.

Happy Sunday to all

Get up and get your butts to church ;^)