SA 1/5

THE WOMAN YOU WERE MEANT TO BE

Today this is what I needed to read.

I have been stuck in a sadness lately.

It has been because I was trying to make

long-term decisions about this surgery.

Making long-term decisions because of health reasons.

Some think it is time for me to hang up the nursing hat.

I could if I wanted to and I know the way I am now

I cannot return to work as of yet.

I have been discouraged because I thought after

8 weeks of this back surgery I would be all better.

Seeing Dr. Donner yesterday has given me a new

light. He is the expert on this type of surgery.

He thinks I am trying to make premature decisions

when I don't yet know exactly what the final outcome

will be with this surgery.

He assures me that just because I still have pain

does not mean that I always will.

He believes that sometimes the new pain is actually

a good sign that the bones are finally fusing together.

He advises me to start focusing more on getting

off some medications to see exactly how I feel off

of them.

It is my new goal. I will start to wean off medications

that I have needed.

In one more month I will have a CT scan to see exactly

what has happened with this surgery.

I am encouraged by the fact that he is not concerned

by the slowness of the healing.

He says some people take more time than others.

Today I will do what our reading speaks of.

Get rid of the "displacement of self"

Today we are to focus on who we are meant to be.

Learning again for the millionth time in my life....

to take one day at a time.