yada, yada, yada...

Yes, here I go about my weight, my health again.

All who follow this blog know how I need to loose weight

and I am so tired of those who say,

"I wish I had just 15 pounds to loose"

or other comments to feed me what I need to hear

to fool me into believing that I am okay.

Well, the fact of the matter is, I am not okay.

It is one thing when my back surgeon reminds me

that I have put on weight since my surgery and he

did not fix my back for me to put extra weight on it

to mess up the surgery.

It is another thing when for the third blood test in a row

my cholesterol, total, hdl, and Ldl, and triglycerides

are all abnormal. I see my doctor and friend, Dr. Pitre

all convinced that okay I am not going to get this weight in order

so I will just take cholesterol medication and at least

stop my heart from plaguing up.

Yet, my friend, she tells me no.

Medication is not what she recommends right now.

We have a conversation as to how I am fighting genetics

but she proves to me that this issue is strictly from

my poor eating habits and lack of exercise.

She insists that I can do this and I have to do this

and that putting me on medication will just give

me reasons to be lax, and in a year or two I will come

back to see her with 20 more pounds on my body and

diabetes and she will know she helped in that.

She reminds me that there are side effects to cholesterol meds.

that I should not have to worry about.

Instead of a prescription for a cholesterol lowering medication

she hands me a handwritten diet she wants me to follow

written on a little sticky pad paper because it is that simple.

I am challenged to loose 15 pounds in three months,

that is very doable, if I do what I am supposed to do.

If in three months it is not done, and my numbers continue to climb,

she will have no choice to put me on meds.

but she won't be happy about it.

So today I feel the motivation that I have been lacking for some time.

I hope it continues through the next three months so

when I go back for another blood test, I am not only happy

with those numbers but the numbers on the scale.

This is not about looking "hot"

(already know I have accomplished that lol)

This is about stopping diseases that I have complete control over.

I am a nurse, who must practice what I preach.

I may not be able to stop the damages that radiation has

done to my body but this, if I allow it,

will be completely my fault and I don't think

I can live with that knowledge.