"in your dreams"

The worst pain is those that come to me in my dreams.

Such is that that finds me awakened on this fine

Sunday morning at 3 am.

The dream today is centered around a visit to a camp.

I know I am a teenager in the dream because

The dream begins with me lying on a sofa

At some camp and I have children tucked under

Each arm. These children seem to be Rebecca

And little miki. Which is weird in itself

As these two, now adults outside the dream world, are

At least 7 years apart.

Yet for the dreams sake they are little,

Tucked in with their auntie lil.

I am in so much pain with them tucked there but I

Don't want them to move, to leave, so I

Say nothing but the pain is terrible.

I know that we have done some strenuous activity

And we are tired and sore and hungry

But we are waiting for rosie and another adult to come with

Pizza. I hear the car drive up and I long for

Two things:

To get these kids off me so I can move out of

This painful position and to eat so I can go to bed.

Yet, I still do not want the children to leave me so

I tell them, "let's pretend we are sleeping"

Even with all the pain I am in, we pretend to be sleeping.

The kids however can no longer stay still and playing

Asleep once rosie waves the pizza under our noses.

Rebecca and lil miki jump off of me in a fit of laughter

And I am laughing as well.

Laughing but I can not move because in the

Dream as in real life, the pain is too bad to move.

I awaken now and there is the pain, followed me right out the

Dream into the real world. It is better once I actually

Get up and begin to move around but it is 2:30am...

It is after nights like tonight imam grateful

Not to have a job as I know sleep will not find me again for hours

If at all now. It is comforting to know that I don't have to

Go to work after a night like this one.

I can take my time and make the day what I need it

To be.

Yes, the very worst pain is the ones that

Follow you right out of a great dream!