one of those days...

Today will be one of those days, just like Sunday will be.

It will be one of those days that the realization of loosing 

my Mommy comes full force.

I know I have to move on, I know I cannot spend the rest 

of my life "feeling sorry for myself"

I am not that kind. I am not a martyr, I am a hopeless optimistic.

Even knowing all of this, even feeling better as the days

pass before me about the loss, I will continue to have

those milestones that the great loss of my Mommy is first in my mind and heart.

Someone told me after two weeks of the loss,

that I can't continue to go around moping.

I knew this was true but I also felt sad.

I thought, if I died, would my children and those that

love me be "well" after two weeks?

I would hope that the loss of me would linger past two weeks.

Putting all this aside, today will be a hard one but also

a beautiful one as my siblings and I will meet in Thibodaux

to go through Mom's jewelry and write thank you cards.

We had to put it off for a few weeks because of vacations

some of us had planned and I know, although we are so 

excited to all be together again for the first time

since Mommy left us, we also know this is and end

to another chapter, something we have to do to move on.

Sunday is also Mothers Day, a day in our family growing up

that never got ignored. My Daddy always bought

Mommy a gift until the kids were old enough to buy it

for him. He never used that saying some husbands do,

"You not my Mother"

He, instead, always honored her as the Mother of his children,

a thank you for all she did for us, for his children.

Yep, my dad was no romantic and if you only knew him  in 

his older sicker years, you would never believe he did this 

but he did. Just like each morning when he served her 

coffee in bed.

I wish I could just sleep the day away.

Gypsy baby is working and I know Kd and BB

will be spending the day with their own little family.

We will gather here on Monday for gypsy and kelmiester's

favorite meal, chicken fricassee' (stew to most of you)

we will play games or make a puzzle or play a game

but regardless, I am hoping for an evening with all my babies.

Sunday, wish I could just take it off the calendar.

Wow, long winded this morning,

Needing extra strength, extra pain management,

needing my sisters today.

Forgive me if I ran on and on today, but 

I gain comfort when I put it down and share it with others.

If you are blessed with a mother, give her extra hugs

this Mothers day. Don't just give her a gift, rather

write her a love letter, enclose all that is good in her,

all that makes her special to you, the appreciation for all

she does for you. Do not take her for granted, not Sunday not any day.

I can attest that there is no Mother out there that would 

rather a love note than a gift.