Third confirmation

The last two days have been emotional ones.

Telling my bosses and work peers

that I will be out of work for an indefinite

time was hard for many reasons.

One, because no matter how much they tell

me not to worry about work I know that I

have left them shorthanded.

Two, because the well-wishes and the outpouring

of love and support from all these people,

especially Denise, Sue and Jim

had me wanting to cry for the fact that

I realize just how lucky I am to belong to such

a wonderful group of nurses.

My principal my teacher friends, all sincerely

wishing the best for me was emotionally draining.

Yet I awaken this morning knowing in my heart

that I have done what is best for me and

am following the journey that God has prepared

for me, the journey I call my life.

After work I headed to Larose for my friend/family doctor

to do the paperwork needed to start my extended sick leave.

She also, after looking at all the information I brought,

and letters she received, reassured me that if it were her

she would give this surgery a shot.

I have began this morning on a new pain management program

that I have denied my body for the chance to

continue working.

With one kidney and not being able to take Tylenol, Advil,

or other anti-inflammatories leaves me with narcotics only.

I have not taken it as prescribed for the love of work.

Those days have to be over.

I have to have pain relief so I can strengthen my body

in hopes of having the best outcome from the surgery

that will take place on November 3rd.

Last night, after taking the new medications I had to text

Doc. Pitre, the pain relief I felt for the first time in

a long time almost had me in tears.

I know I am doing what is right, God has acknowledged that

for me and with all that said,

come Wednesday morning when I realize all are returning

to work and I am not, it will be reality to me.

I do feel a big relief though because now all know that

I will not be there.

Gone are the days when I have to decide each morning

after sleeping very little whether or not I can

make it to work, to try and get through the whole

day or half day. This has worn on me emotionally.

However, My faith tells me there is no doubt that I will be returning

to work better than ever to a group of wonderful people

and children that I love.

This is all good, this is what needs to happen.

When three doctors tell you they think they can do something

for your pain, you must listen.

So the new part of my journey begins...