coming soon:

I spent the day yesterday with my

friend Patricia and her little girl me-me

who was home from school not feeling well.

I love Patricia's children. Me-me is still a student

at TES and her big sis was, prior to moving on to

Middle school. During our day Patricia brought up

the topic of becoming a grandmommy soon

and how she wished she could be there just to see

me on the day of her birth.

I can't even imagine what that day will be like for me.

Sometimes I can't grasp what all tell me about the event

how much my love for this little girl will be.

I share this with P. and she says to me

that she just knows me and I am going to be

so emotional that day.

She is probably right, I mean I can't even see a strangers

baby without getting all warm and fuzzy inside.

P. got me thinking about the idea of this child being

partially a part of me. My child's child made with

the love of his life....

Oh just this thought gives me butterflies in my belly.

During the day me-me comes to me in the kitchen

for a long extended hug as we sway and dance

and I rub her back and kiss her head.

Her mother looks at us and has that smile on her face

that tells me oh if I can be this way with a friends

little girl, I will be puddy in the hands of my little

grandaughter. As I leave P's house after coffee and dessert

with two more of our school friends, Steph and Amanda,

I get love from P's babies as I go to leave they leave their

bikes to give me extra long kisses and hugs

and wave and send kisses the whole time I am backing out.

Then for one moment I get a glimpse of what being a grandmother

will be. My little Jilly-bean sending me love and kisses as I back

out of her own driveway, I get a lump in my throat.

She can not come soon enough, our little miracle.