MY LOVE FOR WRITING

I often can't figure out why journaling, writing is so important to me.

Rarely will you see me without a journal making a trip with me.

Everywhere I go I have a journal.

It gets packed before my underwear.

I have writings from when I was very young

and I have writings from the middle school years.

I have high school writings and writing from the times

when my daddy was dying.

Both of my babies have been given journals that

were started on the day I found out I was pregnant.

I even started a journal for my unborn grandbaby who now

forever lives in heaven.

When I started blogging I realized that now my writings

could be shared with others and that is

a whole different thing.

I had to realize that once I went this route I could be

critiqued by others who may not like what I say.

I wondered, "why is this something that I do?"

It is as important to me as brushing my teeth.

This is not something that all do so I know that it is something

that is in my makeup.

I wonder if it comes from the fact that I always knew any days

I had were blessings and that I wanted to leave something

behind for others when I am gone.

I rarely go back and read what I write in my journals.

I had this idea lately that maybe I need to do that.

I am sure there are many blog ideas in things I have written

over 20 years ago.

Yet, when writing blogs I struggle with the fact that I have

to watch how I word things as to not offend others.

I want to let all know this is not a choice I have.

It is a part of who I am, unable not to do it.

As I was reading this summer I came across wording that

explained for me why I write:

HERO MAMA BY KAREN SPEARS ZACHARIAS

"...No one could make me more aware of the responsibility

I had as a daughter and a writer to get our family's story straight.

For me, writing is like being a mother,

hoping to bring life to a child. I hold in my hands

this miracle of beauty, awe, and wonder.

Along with it is a burdensome responsibility.

It's a terrifying role, one I approach completely aware

that it's going to take a power beyond me-a power

I don't control and can't manufacture by sheer will.

All life is a precious gift, even the life of words."

This statement said clearly for me all I feel about the

responsibility of writing for others to read.

It is not just a matter of "let me tell you what I did today"

It is a job that I enjoy but one that

is important to do in a way that will not hurt or embarrass

those I love.

Happy Wednesday!