It does not matter how much you tell yourself you are ready
to let your Mommy go, no matter how old they are,
when your last parent moves on to the next world,
you are not ready. No matter how old you are, when the time
comes you are still just a little child and you are selfish and
you want your Mommy.
This morning I begin my first day as a child of God
with no Earth parents.
I know, I know all those things people will say,
"She is at rest" "she is in heaven now"
For today I just want the permission to be a person who has
lost one of the most important people in my life.
This morning I awaken after a terrible night with little sleep
and my first reaction is to text the sisters and ask for a Mommy update.
No need for that now. Last night I was consumed with the questions,
"Where are you right now, Mommy?"
Can you see us? Are you in heaven already or do you get to
hover around us for a bit?
I am sad that I didn't dream of her, Robert comes to me always
in dreams but Momma? Nope, Notta.
I will miss my days and nights at the Manor.
Mommy never felt like a burden to any of us,
we all looked forward to our time with Mommy and
all those who call St. Joseph Manor home.
Today, my siblings and I plan on spending the whole afternoon
at the Manor, packing up Mommy's things, separating her
belongings into 7 different boxes, one for each of us
and one for brother Larry's children who are on
their way to us for the funeral/party tomorrow.
Tomorrow, we will bury the Queen.
It will be a hard day but after, Mom insisted on a party.
We will do just that, we have rented the center right next to church,
going to have the lunch catered and all who come for the funeral or anyone
for that matter who loved Mommy is invited and it will be a party.
Lunch for all, a gathering for the afternoon.
None of this is easy and yet, our Mommy raised us to be strong
and do those things that need to be done.
It is what each of us will do.
Thanks to all those who have prayed and been with us through
this journey.
A huge, huge thanks to St. Joseph Manor who was not only a
home for our Mommy but her family, our family.
FUNERAL ARRANGEMENTS:
WEDNESDAY APRIL 16TH
OUR LADY OF PROMPT SUCCOR CHURCH
PRIVATE VIEWING 8AM TO 9AM
PUBLIC VIEWING 9AM TO 11AM
WITH MASS AND BURIAL FOLLOWING
PARTY AFTER AT
LASALETTE CENTER ALL ARE INVITED.
PLEASE COME AND CELEBRATE OUR MOMMY' S LIFE
Praying for you, Lil! God bless you. :)
ReplyDeleteSending prayers for you and your family.
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