Baby it's cold outside

I used to love the cold weather

and I hope after tomorrow's doctor appointment,

I can love it once again.

After two days in bed/ in the house

I am ready for some relief here.

Trying to stay positive

but pain sucks, big time.

There are still pros in everything if you look

for them.

For instance, yesterday I watched

THE HELP

right there on my Ipad, in my bed.

Oh how I love my Ipad.

I made cookies yesterday for Mom's manor party tomorrow

afternoon which I will get out of the house for.

I am hoping that on Friday I can attend

Lucy's choir singing in New Orleans at the fancy

Roosevelt hotel.

Her mom and dad invited me and even offered to go out

their way to pick me up to go...

now that is much to be thankful for right there.

I just know that tomorrow will change my outlook on winter.

Morris junior, off on a new adventure

Mom got a call yesterday that her nephew,

Morris Jr. Had passed away.

He is mom's nephew but like me,

Her nephew was close to her age, they were

10 years apart so they were raised like siblings.

I can tell Mom's dementia is worsening

As she had very little emotion with the news

And by the evening she didn't even mention it.

I have many good childhood memories of Morris Jr.

Especially when he retired from the military and

Moved his family to Galliano.

Although the family never really loved the bayou

Morris Jr. Was never happier than when

He was on his bayou.

Other memories of him is of a cousin who was more

Like an uncle to us.

He was a happy and funny man.

Never did I ever see this man unhappy or angry.

I remember thinking as a little girl that I hoped

One day to have a husband who was happy and fun like him.

He and dad fished lots and when he visited there was always

Some kind of party that came with his visit.

I have, in the last few years reconnected

With his daughter, Cheri thanks to Facebook.

She and I were only a year apart and for a few years

She and I rode to high school together with her

Dad. I know in the last few years he had been really sick

But his death still has shook his Cheri's world

As you are never ready to say goodbye to your parents.

I know this, though

My daddy and brother were quite excited to see him!

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A weekend of pictures

Happy Birthday to Carter!

Carter is Kd's godchild, The bean's cousin.

I cannot believe he is already a year old.

To see his mother with him, well it's a heart

melting experience.

I have learned a lot about the bean when watching her with

other children.

She is a leader.

She will take control of a situation and make sure it

goes her way.

She prefers older children to play with

and is very serious about her play.

Here she is trying to tell her friend, Carson who is the boss.

Bean is pretty much walking on her own when she chooses to.

It is a funny thing this walking, if she thinks about it too much

she falls but if she just takes off with a goal in mind, she

does perfectly.

We also made a little play date in Addis with cousin, Lillian.

Again, she was so serious about her play.

Loved playing with the "big girl" toys that Lillian owns.

Here she is with Minnie, but didn't like the fact that she

was keeping her from the job of play.

Bean loved the real metal dishes that were her size.

Lillian loved the company, we went early so she was a little

"hot mess" when we got there.

I know I will be spending more time with this little one

now that I am not working and will be spending more

time in Plaq.

It's interesting to see Bean in other situations besides

just in her home with her own stuff.

She is so easy to take somewhere.

She rarely fusses unless she wants something she can't have.

Yesterday when leaving, I wanted to cry.

Each time I spend time with her, it is harder to leave.

I love that she not only knows me but loves coming with me.

When it was time for bed, she wanted her Mommy's love,

went with her mom for some cuddling then put her

hands out for me so I could rock her to sleep.

I have said this so many times but

one of my very favorite things is going into her

cool, dark, room and rocking her to sleep.

She is by far, the best little granddaughter.

JIllaxing weekend!

Heading to the little beauty for a weekend of play.

It will be my first time with her since she is walking.

Yes, she is only 8 months old and already walking!

This put a new perspective on Jillaxing day

as I am sure it will be less relaxing and more chasing

her around now.

I am up for the challenge.

The greatest thing about not working anymore is

the time I will get to spend with the Bean.

After Christmas, going to start my weekly scheduled day

with her and I cannot wait!

Make this a special weekend, friends!

Where have I been you asked?

Seems as though I must have a secret following out there

as in the last few weeks that I have not blogged,

many have checked to see what is up with me.

Well, I am still here.

Just lots of decisions made in the last few weeks.

Just didn't have much to share with my population here.

Now word is out, so I can share...

I have decided not to return back to work,

for real this time.

Not to go on much and to bore you guys,

I will just say that having to juggle work, life, and pain.

Well, life won as it should.

Pain will never win, it may be there and part of my life

but it will not win.

So now, I am trying to change my mindset.

While growing up, while a working girl,

when you called in sick, when you stayed home,

you stayed in your pj's and rested.

I have to figure out that this is permanent

and I can do all I care to at my own speed now.

This is what I have been trying to adjust to.

If I go out in the day, and I am having a good day,

I feel guilty thinking I could have made work today.

I am getting better but it is an adjustment.

I am sitting better with my decision.

Love to all!!!