I HATE CANCER!!!!!

I am angry, sick over this dreaded disease CANCER

I honestly hate giving it recognition as it rears its 

ugly head on the innocents but as 

Children's cancer awareness cancer month comes

to an end, so many new diagnosis are coming

to light. A young boy from my home bayou,

Cancer!!!!

A young mother with a loving husband who

i have watched grow up, with two little 

children to raise,

Cancer!!!!

Then yesterday after the best day with my two

oldest grand girls,

I get word that my first cousin, Faye

is going home on hospice.

Having texted with her sweet and only

daughter, Steph, they are trying to go home

tomorrow but not sure if she will make it

to the weekend when we make it there.

BB says I am always fixated on the negative,

I am not, these things are really happening,

can't change what is and pretending to live

like it does not happen, trying to see your lives

through rose colored glasses does not change the

facts. I choose to try and be comfort to some who

suffer. So back to cousin Faye I am so darn angry.

Her family put my family up and stood by my parents

and family so many days as I battled my own cancer.

Their door always opened and now I have to be there too.

I am so angry because this started with a dry cough 

for a lady who never smoked, was always just a wonderful

woman. I small spot on her lung two years ago,

prognosis was great. She even had the best family 

reunion at her home when she was considered in 

remission. Then a few weeks ago, tumors on brain.

Had brain surgery and now home on hospice.

Yeah, I can hear all this stuff about she is going 

to heaven, will be at peace, but fact is,

I am not ready to let her go and that is so darn selfish.

Saturday, if not sooner, I am going there,

she continues to say she "Sees and talks to Aunt Minta"

My mom.....

Prayers please for all fricking Cancer,

I hate you!!!!