WHAT AM I PROUD OF...

So I have had a few followers who are 

missing my blog entries.

With all happening in this family, it is hard

to put what is in my heart without hurting 

someone so I have been basically quiet through

my separation. Today, today, I will brag

a big of those things I have become proud of.

Even in marriage, I was always pretty independent.

I didn't count on others to make me happy

or to spend time with as I have always liked my own

company. It is nothing for me to go to the movies,

casino alone, shopping, eating out, I have done

it for a long time. But those things I did not do 

were the things that Ronnie always took care of

for instance, the car, house appliances, etc.

So two weeks ago the car began to make noise

and instead of calling him I called the dealership and

brought the vehicle in. They finally believed me that

something has been wrong with this car since the

day I brought it home. They put me in a rental car

for free, said they were going to fix all repairs free

of charge and would figure out what the problem was.

Well, the rental was free, but for a little while it

smelled somewhat of a barroom. I got it aired out

and refreshed with frebreeze. It has been a week and

today I got the call that the car is finally fixed and I 

will pick it up Monday. 

Then this week, it was the washing machine.

It would not spin or empty water, after shoveling

all the water out, I called GE instead of Ronald.

Got that done all by myself, had to replace it 

and it felt good to have my own money to replace it with.

I have began this little business of scrapping 

25 drawer countdown to Christmas boxes 

and after making 13, I put on Facebook,

"Last call for Christmas boxes"

and received 13 more orders.

At 30 dollars a piece, I am very proud that

I am making a little cash all on my own.

I have done a few other things like frames and such

but just the fact that I can earn a small income

even on the days that I can't seem to do much else,

I can scrap and profit from it.

So much to be proud of, the best one….

put on a pants that was tight last year, to have it

almost too big to wear, that is what I am most 

proud of, the few pounds I have lost….

So if you find yourself in a position that you 

feel you just cannot go on, you can,

you can do it all and be happy.

Then once you find that spot where you can stand

alone, then you can find someone who you enjoy

their company to hang with.

I am proud of that too, having fun with others, 

one in particular who I have met, that

I enjoy spending time with him, 

Now, the next part is the biggest:

 want to sell the house as I am really ready

for the independence that will bring me.

The best feeling in the world is to have my kids

and my kd proud of me. to know that I will survive

whatever this world throws at me.

 And these little girls that remind me daily that

they will always love me unconditionally

as their Mumsie. I am very proud of the relationship we

are building with each other.

They will always be the fire behind my motivation.

The ones who keep me silly, keep me young,

keep me laughing, keep me bragging.

They are my light at the end of the tunnel,

the jelly to my peanut butter,

the rainbows to all my rainy days.

I love them to the moon and back.