Friday, October 3, 2014


I am a Christina Aguilera fan.
I think she is beautiful, I think she has a beautiful voice
but she is also is a very smart woman.
Yesterday, while "scrap jobbing"
I was listening to MTV when her video for
BEAUTIFUL came on:

Every day, is so wonderful
And suddenly, it's hard to breathe,
Now and then I get insecure
From all the fame, I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down, oh no,
So don't you bring me down today,

To all your friends, you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The piece is gone and the puzzle undone
That's the way it is

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring you down, oh no,
So don't you bring me down today...

No matter what we do 
(no matter what we do)
No matter what they say 
(no matter what they say)
When the sun is shining through
Then the clouds won't stay

And everywhere we go 
(everywhere we go)
The sun won't always shine 
(sun won't always shine)
But tomorrow will find a way 
On the other side

Cos' we are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words won't bring us down, oh no,
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down, oh no,
So don't you bring me down today

Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today

What beautiful words and the video is perfect 
for those words. I remember being a teen 
and having so many things that I wished I could
change. My kinky hair, my crooked back.
Of course, I didn't share this with anyone, I kept
it inside. Anyone who knew me back then would 
have believed there is nothing I struggled with.
I was a funny, outgoing gal. 
Then I grew up and honestly love myself exactly 
as I am. Age is a beautiful thing.
The older I get the more comfortable I am with me.
I know who I am today.
I wish that for all the children of the world.
They are beautiful. I look at all my nieces and nephew,
my great nieces and nephews, some in their teen years,
and I would want them to know this, these words,
that each and every one of you are beautiful 
and don't let the world bring you down.
OH, they will, the commercials, the actresses who 
have the money for Botox or photoshopping,
it is not what you see outside.
MY back remains crooked and their are rolls where
there was once none. I have wrinkles on my forehead
and between my eyes, probably from fussing too much
when the babies were young. But I still
know for 51, I am beautiful. YEs, I still struggle with
wanting to loose weight, to eat healthy but these days
it is not because I care of how the extra pounds look but
to live a long and healthy life.
It is all about how you carry yourself. I have no doubt that
I am 51 years old. I know I don't act that age. that 
is my choice. Yesterday, I picked up Bean at school 
and she wanted to go to the park. It was hot, Ive had
a cold but you know, grand babies get what they want
when its about the park. While we were there, there
was another little girl her age with her Momma.
Of course, Bean asked,
"Mumsie" can I go play with her, make me a new friend?"
So I explain all those things about strangers but if
she really wants to meet her I will go and
make sure the little girl and her Mommy are okay 
with that. Sure they were, Momma was a tad overweight
and her little girl being Bean's age, she was having trouble
keeping up with her. Eventually we all end up at the swings.
"My Mumsie can push me and then she can swing because
she likes to play." Bean shares with our new friends.

The little girls Mommy asks me if she is my little girl.
"Oh No, I am her Mumsie, her daddy is my son"
"Wow, I thought you were her Momma"
"No she is my Mumsie, silly!" Bean shares with her giggling.
I tell her that I am 51.
"Fifty one!!! Damn, I thought you were the Momma!"
well that can make for a good afternoon,
especially when I am a tad under the weather yesterday.
But it all goes back to the lyrics of Christina's song.
We are all beautiful, no matter what they say,
don't let words bring you down.
You are beautiful…..
It's all about how you feel inside.

( can't end this blog without this beautiful baby who 
I also got to play with yesterday, she definitely is beautiful!)

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