A New School Year begins

Today teachers return to the classroom after a very short

summer vacation.

I always think I am over the not working thing.

Then today happens and I am quite sad that I

will not be there for the beginning of the school excitement.

No matter what people think, teachers, although

not happy that their free days of summer are over,

they do get excited about making a difference in 

their new students lives.

I want to be there and yet my time is done.

Just when I think I like retirement, this is the life,

today happens and I want to be there, in the work force,

seeing the changes a summer makes.

I will be okay, of course.

The first morning I have so much pain that

I can't get out of bed and I don't have to worry about

calling in sick. 

But today I give myself permission to grieve this fact.

That given my ideal world, I would be pain free all the time

and I would be going to work making a difference

in the lives of children.