Today marks two weeks that I have returned to work.
I am hanging in, happier than I have been since Jillybean was born.
There is something about a job that you love
that is medicine.
I still have pain, will for the rest of my life.
Yet, when I get to that school, and see all the children
ready to hug, give me kisses, smiling,
there are no medicines that work like that.
I get home from work and I am exhausted,
still not used to the daily rigors of a job again.
Emotionally though, as I wind down each evening,
doing the few things that I do in the evenings,
I am excited about the next day, going to work.
I have the best job in the school, really i do.
There is the "paperwork" that every job these days
has that is not so much fun.
But to be able to love and be loved by 600 some odd children
is worth all those things that I don't necessarily love.
I am so glad HOBL came home yesterday.
Life is easier for me when he is here.
Not only is he afternoon company
but the help he gives to me when he is here
makes him the best!
For the first time in my life, I have decided
I have earned the help of someone to help with housecleaning
when HOBL is not here.
I just cannot have a full time job and do the big housecleaning
and I want to do the job, badly.
HOBL and I had just spoke of it
when Cami and Roen came to visit.
I was mentioning this to her and she was like,
"I can do that for you"
Like an answer I needed.
Someone I trust and love,
someone who loves animals
and someone who can use the extra cash as she
is a single momma in college again.
So as week two goes behind me, I am
a happy, happy woman.
The only thing that has been a negative
is I was not prepared for how much
I miss Jillybean.
Called she and KD yesterday morning just
to here her sneeze!
The weekend brings these two girls for a
long weekend visit and going to also
hopefully have Baby girl and her friend, Kelli
for a whole day on Saturday!!!
Going to be a good one!
HEY LITTLE SISRER JUST READ YOUR BLOGG, REALLY COOL, YOU ARE SUCH A GREAT KID,. YOU KNOW AT MY AGE I STILL FEEL YOUNG,WHAT DOES NOT KILL YOU MAKES YOU STRONG, THERE AER SO MANY THINGS THAT I THINK ABOUT THROUGHT MY EVERY DAY LIFE, I HAVE A JOURNAL ABOUT ME AND JOE,HOW WE MET HOW WE FELL IN LOVE,ETC,. MINTA HAS BEEN ASKING ABOUT THAT, NOT TO LONG AGO SHE SAID. MOM WHAT DID YO9U AND DAD HAVE IN COMMAND, HE WAS SO MUCH OLDER THAN YOU, WHAT COULD YOUI HAVE IN COMMAND, HE WAS NOT ONLY MY HOBL A FRIEND BUT ALSO SOMEONE I COULD GO TO WHEN I JUST NEEDED A HUGH AND HE WOULD LISTEN TO ME, WHICH WAS A GOOD THING, BEING THE OLDEST OF SEVEN CHILDREN WOW I COULD TALK AND HERE HE WAS LISTING, STILL LOVE THAT MAN AFTER 21 YEARS HE HAS BEEN GONE, STILL MISS HIM A LOT, NO ONE ELSE CAN BE LIKE HE WAS MO ONE, LOL YOU SIS MONE
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