Twenty one years ago on this day I gave natural birth
to the most beautiful baby girl at 5:45 AM.
My blog followers may not know that I am also a journaler
and have written to both my babies since the day I
knew they were conceived.
Both of the babies now own their journals but I have
kept highlights from both of their most special moments.
Last night, while remembering how fast the time has passed
I go back into these written highlights and find
and entry from December 22, 1989
when baby girl was a mere two months old.
"I ALWAYS FELT THAT I COULD NEVER LOVE ANOTHER
CHILD AS MUCH AS RODDIE JOHN THEN YOU
CAME ALONG AND OPENED A WHOLE
OTHER SIDE OF MY HEART THAT I NEVER KNEW I HAD...
WHEN I LOOK AT YOU I SEE MY BABY BUT I ALSO SEE
A GIRL WHO HOPEFULLY ONE DAY WILL BE A WOMAN.
SOMEONE WHO I HOPE WILL SHARE HER
FEELINGS WITH ME AS I HOPE I CAN WITH YOU.
I CAN SEE US SPENDING SHOPPING DAYS TOGETHER,
MAYBE YOUR OWN PREGNANCIES...
I HOPE YOU WILL ALWAYS REMAIN HAPPY AND HEALTHY.
I WANT TO ALLOW YOU TO BE A CHILD.
YOU WILL GROW INTO AN ADULT TOO FAST
WITHOUT BEING PUSHED. I HOPE BY SETTING GOOD
EXAMPLES BOTH YOU AND YOUR BROTHER CAN
BECOME GOOD INDIVIDUALS.
REMEMBER THAT YOU ARE UNIQUE -
THERE IS NO OTHER LIKE YOU.
BE PROUD OF THAT AND DON'T TRY TO BE SOMEONE
YOU ARE NOT. PEOPLE WILL LOVE YOU FOR THAT
AND IF THEY DON'T THEY ARE NOT SOMEONE
YOU PROBABLY NEED IN YOUR LIFE ANYWAY.
REMEMBER THAT AS YOUR PARENTS, I HOPE YOU
KNOW THAT YOU CAN ALWAYS BE HONEST WITH US
AND WE WILL TRY TO BE FAIR.
WE MAY NOT ALWAYS AGREE BUT WE WILL TRY
AND HAVE AN OPEN MIND AND ACCEPT YOU FOR
WHATEVER YOUR BELIEFS ARE..."
I am proud that 21 years later most everything that was written
to my 2 month old baby girl came true.
After a miscommunication because of a text that did not
go through to me to say baby girl was going out and spending
the night at a friends house, I spent the night awake wondering
where my baby girl was.... It was a rough night until I heard her
voice at 8:30 am.
Yet now more than ever because of this night I realize I
just cannot survive without these children in my life...
So, baby girl, happy birthday!
It has been a wonderful honor to be your Mother,
I would not trade it for the world, except for maybe last night (lol)
I am proud of all you strive to become as you
take the unconventional road of a small bayou gal.
FOREVER AND EVER MY BABY GIRL
Jesi- you are very special to us and we wish you a terrific birthday! We love you!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday jesi!
ReplyDeleteOh I remember so many things over the pass 21 years about this Jesica of ours.
ReplyDelete1. Had to go get your Mom out of the movies and tell her you were in the ER. "SOMEONE" thru your arm out of socket! Do you remember who might that be Jes?
2. Your first and only dance recital. You received many gifts and as much as you use to like presents you well informed all of us that "THIS WAS YOUR FIRST AND ONLY DANCE RECITAL"!
3. You would play football and basketball with Roddie and his friends. They would get mad because you played both sports better than them!
4. Remember when you told everyone that you wanted money for your birthday. Well you got money from most everyone but one person. Instead of money you got a "MUMMY DOLL". Jes you remember who did this to you?
5. Someone threatened you that one of your recent pictures was going to be sent to "AMERICA'S NEXT TOP MODEL"! I truly believe that you could be picked but I guess we'll never know!!
Jes, Happy 21st Birthday! I hope the rest of your life is good to you!
Love you,
Aunt Ronnie
Being the mommy of a girl is sooooo special.
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